subwoofer system on my time travelling

balenciaga
( s'more )

this is my kitty! She's named Muta. She is beyond awesome so far. A cuddly fierce lapcat. LOVEIT.


I kinda miss livejournal. Now I will friend al the artist I admire and get my fix everytime I go on the internets.

My plants are dying, not enough light in this flat.
My favorite running song is everything by madonna.

Ⓢⓤⓒⓚ ⓘⓣ, ⓑⓘⓣⓒⓗⓔⓢ
8 am pride: I am slowly exercising myself to become an early riser. The getting up from bed is already easier, and I have my 8 am run even before my coffee.
Today most memorable running tracks:
Biggie mashed in some weirdo effort with Frank Sinatra- Dead Wrong
Madonna - Into the groove
Wu- Visionz 'Gettin caught up in my world, Haagen-Daaz world'
ODB - precious moments when he starts "Don't Fuck with Me" :
"yo when I say 'you don't want to fuck with me'
I'm not talking to you girl -and woman"



or the dreams
so full of ripe traumas, ready to rip at 7 am more than then they would be at 11 am- by 10 they become rotten and ineligible

woo!
Right now I have two prints to offer, since I just wanna see if this works. If yes, i will probably set up an etsy account etc.

The drawings are printed on epson matte archival paper, pardon , I don't know the thickness. They are decently thick.

If you are interested, please email me at veryevilmeri@gmail.com
if you just wanna buy one straight ahead, you wild thing you, my paypal email is diedarling@gmail.com

23 dollars including shipment worldwide.

thank you for listening.

1. My favorite songs nao:

-blue magic jay z (nah i never really get this jay z guy, when the 99 problems video came out i had a good chuckle coz i thought it's really cool, it was a v. positive chuckle, but i don't get him.) it is the perfect dance song. when i'm alone and nobody's watching. i have a mirror in a strategic point so i can sort of dance WITH someone. pathetic? i call it kewl like maple syrup on bacon.

- freebird lynryd sky-hy-hynryd so amazing i have no words for it. i close my eyes and i travel with the eagles. every hosewife needs this song. along with a government supported distribution of speed.

- a milly lil wane from hate to love. from hate to love.

- me plus one kasabian so sweet it transports me to the times of being 15 years old and in love with a fictional character from some weird trilogy book

- you've got ahold on me jackson 5 like crystal disco



Anyhow, now I am back and be postin'. I was slacking this summer and had issues with loads of things. For example, one day i realized I am not depressed. And then a month later I realized I am again depressed. That was kinda a bad day for me.



I dreamed of crazy things. None of those dreams was about love, and none of those dreams was about rejection. 0:0



I did some illegal things in more than one country. No biggie tho, small time crookery. Or rather, the usual girl dumb fun stuff. One stolen beer destroys the other bottle for which you actually paid, though.However if the stolen beer was a fancy one it was all well worth it. Or wasn't it. We shall see, not all problems are opportunities.









My back aches! I go do some yoga now. But I will post more now.

shimmy shimmy yo

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look at this: http://blog-imgs-30-origin.fc2.com/p/i/c/picture2ch2/vip603927.jpg

it makes me feel like i'm turning into a young t.rex or rather allosaur and i just wanna plunge into that forrest and forget all the troubles and have dinosaur dreams.


drawing has been hard on me because of self doubt and trouble with the discipline in life. gluttony and lazyness and perversity arrived and self hate just always comes around when you do that. so i sketch a lot of really dumb stuff. and i don't care, coz i have never really sketched anything smart.






( you had it 4 a minute but it seems like a month )

yeah baby. i like it raaaaw. uuuh baby i like it raaaaaw.

winter wine xanax ambien sad gray anxious, but on the other hand onion and garlic soups, being sick and feeling the same old feeling of cozy flu settling down in your limbs



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listening to

kim wilde kids in america
michael jackson don't stop till you get enough and get on the floor
B.I.G. nasty girl



-do you know about the space pen?
-no
-it's a pen which is like amazing


organic cupcake trip


dead bodies swim in my belly

blondebleached hair gets so tangled...i had to chop a bit off instead of combing
but i heard of people combing out their dreads... must be really fun to do that.




on kasiukasiu.com/blog i posted some pictures from yesterday as well

maybe for the show on wednesday. maybe not, since i am terribly indecisive.

saturday night
on the bus
very daft
then a conversation about how life is a tragedy

this is all pictures i have from the holidays. all parties... no family christmas tree coziness... my camera is in pieces.




all images by xenka



todays post was sponsored by the letter m like mg's and h like headache


i wonder if drinking 2 liters of water within 2 hours will make me feel better?

in autumn i met a shaman lady, she told me things about my past lives and told me things about my names and numbers i dream of... she told me that i am very secretive and i should change that. which is true, i am so horribly closed in in my own head. i'd need a howard moon to show my a picture of a pony and take me out of this misery! anyhow, i am thinking of starting keeping this blog properly, as in... you know. uh. opening up a bit. i will try.
i can try, yeah! why don't you as me a question to help me get talking. any questions allowed. and ask, coz i'll be embarrassed if no-one asks and i will get all sulky :E
and i will ask questions back. this way i can finally maybe get in touch with my friends list.
and now, the water!

holidays came crazy and went, what stayed is some stale champers in the fridge.


that's next week!



to buy
plants
hairdressers service (heroin chic roots way too long)
a screw for the ceiling curtains so we can divide the bedroom in two

things i did done this week:
loads of pancakes!
i decorated the fish tank with something that doesn't fit into a fish-enviroment
i dl jurassic park 1 and 2
i was sick every day. i am confused. this cold, will it ever pass?
i said g-bay to sanna only to gleefully recieve a call that she's comming back coz she missed her connection train.
watched "cars" every day. even twice a day.




voila,night-night!

"fantastic plans for prayers"


on friday i met a new FRIEND.

awesome! he directed the "wizard of gore" remake. at the party i introduced him obnoxiously as "a hollywood movie director" and you know,why shouldn't i,maximization of fun! it went way better when last year i excitedly tried to make some porn stars friends with my friends.

then i was sick and tired all weekend but plenty to do.

now it's monday,must change plans for everyday life and PMS is making me sulky.

flu/cold still holds on
must go to bed

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2.one of the coolest things nowadays is to go to the playground with my youngling and have him prance around while i read murakami in the winter sun. yes,yes,it is winter,and i embrace it, with all the might of my lonely black heart! it calls out for cozy tranquilizer evenings (i quit somehow on the way of practicing yoga,but soon i'll be alone at night, at least till Sanna arrives to save me from merging with shadows and that leaves room for those cute little evil fear-takers). also,it means a white and warm scarf,it means walking around with a blanket on, and drinking tea. it means being happy every time the sun dares to shine out. and then it's gonna be snowy,slushy and gray,and i will clasp my hands in the anticipation of spring. seasons are perfect. yet when i grow up i want to move to a country where it's never too cold. this or alaska.


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Amicalement,
xxx

flufluflu!

Flu makes me feel like "climbing the worlds biggest nurofen", an expression from Vince Noir's "excuse book".
Drinking wine+coke doesn't help with the flu
Reading "Hard-Boiled Wonderland..." by Murakami
Still unpacking in the new flat
Victorious assemblage of a mop+bucket kit
Broccoli junk soup
Anxious Anxious Anxioooosss - something's in the air around. I feel like I live in a little hut surrounded by moss and swamp and huge old trees
My heart hurts from flu so I'm panicking
And such no yoga for me
Kanye West's "graduation" still my favorite sound-book of wisdom
Curtis Mayfield's version of Baby Huey's "Hard Times" is beyond sexy-genius
I get nice AWESOME letters nowadays
Bug HUGE tattoo design oh am I anxious how it'll come out on somones flesh
Waiting for a tranquilizer delivery. I have a feeling it won't arrive,but that's okay.
Tomorrow I might cook a soup
I am content like the whole world

i try to get my mind on shallower questions in life. like, should i get myself a moleskine calendar for the next year? i had one this year. it's pretty and red and big. once i started having mischievous secrets i felt compelled to dragging it around with me, wherever i went. it is most inconvenient. it's really heavy.



woo,secrets


does anyone believe in numerology? any experience with it?

three weeks of depression! it's not as bad as it was when i was a teenager. being over 25 rocks. every day is a lesson, and luckily now life doen't seem to be needing a tranquilizer pillow... for a while i pondered going to the doctor, but i am pretty sure good thinking, yoga and lots of fruits + drawing will do. it must do, i refuse other options.

another opencanvas sketch, a result of overly fat french toast and a bad year's wine



Affectueusement,
k

h8te!






ROOOAR